Dating Like a Mother

17 years ago today i put on white and made a promise that i'd forever love.  I kept that promise until it shattered my life into so many pieces that no matter what i tried i couldn't put them back together.  And today i wouldn't ever want to put them back together because the person i am today is stronger and more confident.  At first my story may sound dramatic and one of a weak women but the strength i have found in it is incredible.  I know my worth and what i deserve and i'm not going to stop until i get it.  And i'm going to continue to tell every women (and every man that will listen) they deserve nothing but amazing things.  I maybe guarded at first because of my past and fearful to let you in because of my hurt, i may even give weak hugs or refuse to look you in the eye until i'm certain,  But, when i'm certain i'll let you in and never turn my back on you. Last night over a couple bottles of wine i sat in my kitchen with two other women....

He asked if I've blogged about him...  My answer was simple have you read my blog.  And then he gave me that face, the one that makes me smile inside and out.  I responded, Yes, i have twice.  He then asked how i refereed to him...that's a good question.  I guess i didn't really refer to him specifically because i didn't want to give to much away not knowing where or what this really is that we're doing.   But, there is clearly a different tone to my entries about him. So then how do i refer to him?   This dating thing is a lot more work than i ever realized i knew it was hard but when you add real life plus kiddos plus ex's (they'll always be there) and trying to find time for each other it's hard.  But, i keep telling myself for the right one time and patience is all worth it.  So with time as it will or will not reveal itself patience and understanding is what i'll give.