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Success Story

17 years ago today i put on white and made a promise that i'd forever love.  I kept that promise until it shattered my life into so many pieces that no matter what i tried i couldn't put them back together.  And today i wouldn't ever want to put them back together because the person i am today is stronger and more confident.  At first my story may sound dramatic and one of a weak women but the strength i have found in it is incredible.  I know my worth and what i deserve and i'm not going to stop until i get it.  And i'm going to continue to tell every women (and every man that will listen) they deserve nothing but amazing things. 
I maybe guarded at first because of my past and fearful to let you in because of my hurt, i may even give weak hugs or refuse to look you in the eye until i'm certain,  But, when i'm certain i'll let you in and never turn my back on you.
Last night over a couple bottles of wine i sat in my kitchen with two other women.  We all have a different story but all have younger children that we love immensely in common.  We started by chatting about our children and the challenges we face as mothers especially here in the Naperville area.  The one woman asked me about my divorce and what led to it.  I openly shared my story but also told her that, that story has made me the woman i am now.  I am stronger and better for it, and i'd even live it all again.  I then explained that even after being told that no one would ever want me because i was used up and nothing but a mother of 3, that that's not true.  We all have a story and we all have insecurities but it's what we do with those insecurities.  Don't let anyone determine your worth. 
I don't know what my end story is going to look like.  I don't know when it's going to be written but what i do know is that the stories not over yet and the best chapters are yet to come.  I don't know who the characters will be besides my boys and i but, i know we'll be there and i'll do everything i can to make it amazing.
I received a text this morning that said, thank you for your hospitality, your success story needed to be heard.  At first i wouldn't call it a success story but the more i think about it, it is my own success story one of confidence, bravery and love for myself.

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