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A TEACHER like YOU

 I can't believe the end of the school year is here.  This year has been filled with many highs and lows.  I met 16 new friends that quickly found a place in my heart.  Over the last 9 months we all grew including me.  I was pushed to deeper levels of understanding and compassion.  I left school more days than I want to admit only to climb into my car and cry.  I'm thankful for this year and each of my friends and the memories we made. Tomorrow the children will take their last slide in preparation for next year.  I have a feeling it will be a day of many emotions. 

May is always a busy month, with birthdays (including my own) mother's day, graduations, soccer and the end of the school year madness.  May started with a bang with myself receiving a black eye, due to a block to the face.  I guess there is a first for everything and I hope the last.  Josiah celebrated his 14th Birthday and Mother's day followed quickly.

Tomorrow is my last day of school for the 2023-2024 school year.  The boys are done the following week.  This time of year always makes me stop and think about everything around me and where we are all headed.  Once of my student's gave me a book titled. "A TEACHER like YOU."  As I read the book for the first time I began to cry.  It was about being exactly what those around you need and vice versa.  

I find myself once again alone with just my boys.  Maybe that's okay, maybe right now it's exactly what I need and exactly what they need.  I often struggle at this time of year as I read the many cards and notes I receive from parents of gratitude.  The abundance of kind words of appreciation for me and ability to love and teach children at such a tender age.  I am SO loved by so many people and there children.  I am SO respected and appreciated by so many.  How is it then that God allows me to feel sadness and loneliness?  Is my reward the love of my children, others children and appreciation of the families that I teach?  

I'm selfish, I want more.  I'm not giving up, but I am taking a step back.  I'm going to take the summer to see what organically takes place in my life.  

I do have a friends wedding looming in October.  It's a destination wedding and I do NOT want to travel and go alone. 

Bring on the birthday weekend... And being exactly what I need.



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