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On The Eve of His Birthday

 I'm not really sure how my baby turns 16 tomorrow.  One might wonder why and I sharing this on my datinglikeamother blog, well without him I wouldn't be a mother.  I remember this day like it was yesterday.  So, here it goes.

October 26, 2007 I was 34 weeks pregnant and couldn't be more excited to welcome my first child into this world.  Micah was prayed for and wanted so badly for a couple years.  He was a true answer to many prayers.  About 4 days prior I had experienced a few things that made me think that he might be coming sooner than later.  They told me to just keep my appointment for Friday and if anything changed to give them a call.  In the meantime I continued to 'nest' and prepared for my baby.  I had stopped working just a few weeks prior (I had not taken a class of my own that year knowing I would not be retuning after the birth).

We attended my appointment that morning.  The doctor checked me and said everything looked good.  But he decided he wanted me to head over to the hospital for observation.  Still to this day I have no idea what made him decide to do that.  I am SO thankful that he did.  We went to triage for labor and delivery.  They hooked me up to monitors and there we sat for a couple hours.  Baby looked great, the doctor came in to give me an update and send me home.  That's when everything changed.  As he was telling us our next steps (go home and wait it out) babies heart beat was gone.  It didn't just drop, it disappeared completely.  The room filled with nurses and doctors, they wear trying to find his heartbeat, they were moving me around, they were trying to see it on the ultrasound.  Eventually after what seemed like an hour they found his heartbeat.  The doctor then informed me that I had just earned myself a stay in the hospital.  

That evening we settled into our room.  Dad left for awhile to check on our dog Rubix.  While he was gone again babies heartbeat disappeared.  I remember calling him and crying that he needed to get back to the hospital.  That night it continued to happen.  The next morning the doctor came into the room checked me and was very blunt.  He said I can send you home, but I can't promise your baby will survive.  Or, we can deliver him now.  They prepared us for all scenarios.  They said he might not come out crying and maybe not even breathing on his own.  He might be taken immediately to the NICU.  But he also may come out screaming and need little to no assistance.  Within an hour Micah was here.  He came out screaming, but he was small.  They allowed me to get a quick look and give him a kiss.  He was quickly taken to the NICU so they could best care for him.  After I was able to recover for an hour or so, I was rolled down to the NICU so I could see him again.  He was 4lbs 5oz of perfection.  I was so proud, I was him mom.  

Micah continued to stay in the hospital for 2 weeks.  He needed to put on weight and the ability to feed on his own.  This was probably one of the hardest times in my life.  I questioned everything I had done and what might have caused this.  Now, looking back I realize there is nothing I could have done differently.  Two additional babies later, none were full term and the truth of the matter was... I loved everything about pregnancy, it just didn't like me.  

I am so thankful for Micah and that he is mine.  He is becoming such an amazing young man.  The past 16 years we have been through a lot together and again I'm blessed that he is mine.  






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