I recently came across this song, All that Really Matters by ILLENIUM & Teddy Swims. It really is what's important. If you know me, you've heard me say... I'm Scared. If I'm honest, I am scared. I'm scared I'm doing it all wrong. I'm scared I'm not doing enough. I'm scared I won't find someone. I'm scared that I'll never find true happiness in the end. I'm scared I'll be alone. I don't need a person to make me happy, but I do need an inner peace. I need that circle of safety. Those who notice when you didn't return home, those who notice you haven't been answering your phone. In the end we need people in our circle. Find something you can hold onto, someone you can come home too. Within the last couple weeks, I cut my circle once again. I realized some of the people I had let in were not ultimately looking out for me. If you get a chance, take a listen and maybe even pull up some other albums. Music speaks to my soul and this one is a good one.
For the last ten years, my world has revolved around my three boys. I poured everything into them, my energy, my time, my heart. I became their anchor, their safe place, their constant. And as the years passed, they grew. Not just taller or older, but more independent and confident. Little by little, I began to feel that familiar shift: they still needed me, but not in the way they once did. For the first time in a decade, I could finally breathe for myself again. I had no expectations of love finding me. My life had settled into a rhythm of responsibility and quiet strength. But then, as life often does when we least expect it, it brought someone into my world who would change everything. A man finding love after loss. A man who loved deeply, truly, wholeheartedly before. Instead of feeling intimidated by the depth of his past, I found myself moved by it. The way he speaks of love, the way he honors what he once had, only makes me feel closer to him. It shows the kind of heart he...
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