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One Down, One to Go

One down, one to go... the holidays that is.  
The weekend before thanksgiving my phone was stolen.  I placed it on the counter at a store and walked out only to return minutes later and it was gone.  So, my mood/emotions were on the rise the days leading up to Thanksgiving.  
As strange as it may sound a small part of me wanted the day to come for me to drop the boys off at their dads so i could feel the pain and get it over and done with quickly.  They were excited to "set up" and "prepare" for their feast at their dads house, i faked smiles and told them how excited i was for them all along breaking inside that i can't offer them the same.  I used to be the one planning and prepping for the feast and just like that it was gone.  I know that one day i too will be able to offer them it all.  But, for now since my family is out of town and i won't take the boys from their dad i'll just have to get comfortable with it.  I had a nice thanksgiving celebrating with friends and feel so blessed to have so many that truly love and care about me.
I also spent the weekend finishing up the decorations inside and outside the house.  Micah may have told me that my lights outside kind of suck but at least they look better than nothing at all.  Hey, i'll take it.  
But my favorite moment was when i was driving down book between 75th and 83rd and i saw my favorite decoration had been put out.  This is going to sound silly but for years someone takes the time to string a single strand of battery operated lights on a tree in the forest preserve.  There it stands in the middle of the darkness.  My heart feels complete joy every time i pass it.  I even find myself driving that route just to get a glimpse of it.  If you're ever in the area and its dark outside take that route.  I have no idea who does it or why but they do it every year (moving it a little each year)  They must know it brings a smile on many peoples faces.
Next up... Christmas (and my sweet baby boys birthday)  Christmas isn't much easier than thanksgiving but i'm lucky enough to get my boys on Christmas eve and Christmas morning.  The boys and i have so many traditions and memories packed into those 24 hours that it's magical.  This Friday i have an ugly sweater party and i'm super excited about what I've put together to wear.  Let's just say i don't always follow the rules...
My Christmas cards are addressed and ready to be mailed December 1... So, keep your eyes open for yours to arrive.  

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