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I'm very clear about one thing.  My boys are most important to me.  This journey is not just about me but also about them.  One of the sexiest things about a man is the Father that he is.  I want nothing more than to be happy, but their happiness is most important to me.  All three of my boys are completely different but perfect in their own ways.  I don't like to open up about my boys, they're my secret treasure.  But, I've slowly realized over time that in order for someone to fall in love with me then they have to love the mother that i am and eventually love my boys too.  This whole journey some days seems completely impossible and scary.  But, it's my time, it's my turn.  For so long i wondered when it would be my turn, when do i get answers and i truly believe it's coming.  I don't know what its going to look like, i don't know what it's going to feel like.  My boys will stay my treasure until i know... but, when i know i'll open that door.  I don't know how long that takes because i've never felt it, but i think i'll know.  Until then this is all you'll get out of me...
Meet my oldest... Micah... Hes just a month away from his 10th Birthday and has a tender heart and very slow to warm up.  His trust isn't given but only earned.  But, once you earn it, you'll realize the work was well worth it.

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